Abusers

You'll find them always behind a charming facade. They need to pretend they are something they're not, in order to trap you on their web.

They say you the sweetest things. They act like if they care about you. But there's always something strange, something unreal on their behaviour. Something that makes you distrust, be wary.

Then one day, the truth is discovered, and their real self arises. And their real self turns to be a monster: the nightmare begins.

It doesn't matter all your effort on listening and being listened. It doesn't matter anything you do, the chances you give. They all will be smashed, mocked on, laughed at.

You'll be insulted. Your judgement will be insulted. Your friends will be insulted. They'll try by all means making you feel insecure, dirty, worthless: They need you feeling insecure, dirty and worthless, they need that you depend on them so they can throw, furious, all their misery on you.

There are abusers in both lives. In both lives, they'll tell you that they're not a monster, they'll try always blaming you for their behaviour. They always try making you feel miserable, by promising a change that will never happen, and then saying that it's your fault if they've not changed, because you've not cared about them. In Secondlife, they will even be cheeky enough as for telling you that in their real lives, they're not like this.

They are.

Abusers can't hide they are abusers once the mask has fallen on the floor and revealed the monster that was behind.

So be strong. Don't listen at them. Push them as far as you can from your life, it's the only way you can "win". Never play on the playground for an abuser. It will be only your loss. Your time and your energies will be the only wasted ones.

Abusers never change.

As soon as you identify one... run away.

Unfortunately, I'm talking by experience here. And as expected, the abuser still has the nerve of blaming everybody because of his lies being discovered and his true colors being exposed again, with an increasing and never ending rage that shows, once more, that his sweet promises of change were the same lie that he is.

Abusers never change.

Repeat that all the times you need when you find one. And run away. Don't feel guilty: they won't feel bad about making you miserable, so you don't have to feel guilty for escaping from them. They never change. Never.

Halloween Costume

I've never celebrated parties, but this year, being here, joining a related event, has made me change my mind, look in my wardrobe for an old dark nun costume, and I've done the rest.

Yes, that's me resting on a broom with a builtin AO for keeping the static pose on all the time. Yes, I've done the pose. Yes, I've done the broom. Yes, I've done the AO. And, although the maps for the cute ghosts are acquired ones, I've arranged the circular set, made them rotate slowly around my head... Soon I'll create my own cape and jewelry.





The good of learning is that you grow, and depend less and less from others.

Burning Man 2010

So I entered in the desert, and found an incredible spectacle full of light and color, much more enjoyable at night.

At times, I had the feeling of being transported to my own town, when we have our own party here, also full of light and color. The streets get filled with lots of sculptures for being burnt the night of 19th, March, every year since I can remember, and more.




Light, sculptures and fires. Majestic shapes coloring a night that never ends, a night melting with the day created by the shininess of the glow emerging from the life that every piece conjured in this desertic place. Life from the desert, color from the nothing, highness staring at you, haughty, proud of their own intrinsic mysteries, just slightly revealed, to be guessed, by looking at them from the ground.







And who was telling me, when I arrived to the colorful fractal zone...



... that I'll find... these flowers?



I think that what I felt must be similar as what's experienced when you have a kid and see him grow, take what may learn from you... and transform it into his own identity.

I don't remember who said this, but how true is...

If you have an apple, and I have an apple, and we both exchange them, we still have each one, one apple. But if you have an idea, and I have an idea, and we both exchange them, now we both have two ideas.

And even more.

Neverending creativity. Neverending sharing. Neverending smiles on the process, talking directly to the other's minds, your heart pounding with the other's hearts, the only that we can see and feel from the others when the physical appearance vanishes under the standarization of beauty.

All these, is what I love from my Second Life.

Blue

The day you cried cold crystal was the day you remembered when his blue gaze pierced your chest, reaching your heart.

The cold disdain in his eyes withered it forever; his cruel smile threw it into the well where hope is lost, and sadness breaks your soul. There your heart was smashed, broken, a thousand multicolored shards that quickly grayed; leaving only the stench of loneliness.

Within his ivory tower, atop an ivory throne, he laughs as he plays - turning hearts to crystal, he always loved the sound of crystal as it breaks. In the end, your feelings, emotions, hopes and dreams... how different are they from crystal? So easily shattered on a whim.



This post is also published in The Night Corner

What have I done...

First, tentacles.

Now, this.









It's dangerous letting me use a computer.

Be careful...

This may seem a class running on creating custom characters...





They seem quiet, paying attention to something in the screen...





As time passes, more and more tentacles are seen at the Builder's Brewery...



They're obviously planning something. If I were you, I'd be scared.

Halloween Gift

There's an event organized at the Builder's Brewery, the Halloween giftaway. The owners have prepared a graveyard where everybody is putting their presents, for others acquiring them. I've joined the event with mine: a dark house, plus a collection of pumpkins and a set of (pulsating) ghosts.



Don't miss the chance! The giftaway finishes on october, 31th. See you there :-)